Hey tomahawk,
I hope you're on your road to recovery and that you're working through this terrible experience that you've had. I wish you all the best.
With that said, you should really consider looking into something like
https://centers.rainn.org/ if you want to share your experience or express yourself. I don't believe these forums are necessarily the best platform for you to relive your trauma.
If you disagree and feel like this is a worthy platform, then by all means go ahead and share. Just know that there are other options out there in case you feel like you need help. Someone will always be willing to listen and lend you their assistance.